ranting!

ok so my family is kind of driving me crazy!!! My mom tends to baby me which i cant stand! i really miss having certain freedoms. like not having to ask to just go to a friends house and also i miss not having to go some place i dont want to. And like my mom doesnt ask me if i want to do things she just expects me to know what we are doing and do them. even if i already have plans or something. Like today my mom told me we were going to montero (a near by city) for the morning and have lunch. i was thinking ok thats fine, so i went well when the we still hadnt had lunch by 2 i told started to worry because i had dance class that i couldnt miss. i told my mom and she was like oh no we arent going back in time. this made me annoyed and i convinced her to let me take a taxi back to santa cruz. but the point is that when i missed class because i wanted to do something i got yelled at that i could never NEVER miss class, yet when she wants to do something that i dont want to and didnt ask if i wanted to its fine if i miss class!!!! ah!! its annoying! and its just she treats me like im so young and stupid! ugh plus she is one of those people is happy all the time even when its a fake happy. and my brothers that bicker alllllll the time. and im always getting told that i need family time BUT THEY ARE NEVER HOME!!! and they are constantly playing music which is ok but they play the same dang songs over and over and over and OVER!! its sooooooooooooooooooo annoying. and my mom is constantly on the phone and when she talks on the phone her voice goes louder and louder and shes like screaming!!!!!! makes me want to scream! and because im ranting....well im tired of being told that im losing to much wait but then they make me go to the gym! makes no sense! plus the constant complaining that i dont eat and that i never try anything!! im sorry if the food here is gross and i dont like it! and i tell my mom i just cant eat much meat yet all she does is press meat on me and then she makes jokes about me to her friends and people!!! ahh!! some times i just really want to get out of this house! sometimes i want nothing else but to get a new family here. i dont want to go home but sometimes this family drivers me insane. and its not like im having fun with them for normally when im with them they are driving me up the walls and i feel bad that i just want to yell at them sometimes and like tell my mom to stop and leave me alone. im a pretty mature person and i dont like or need to be treated like a little kid. i dont want her to treat me like one of her kids i want her to treat me like ME! for her kids are spoiled and never had a job or probably have one in their lives. their only job will be like the farm or something. my brother can pretty much talk my mom into anything and its just amazing! they have never had to earn their own money! idk i just miss being treated the way my parents treated me and not like a little kid and sometimes all the emotional stress makes me sick.............UGH! ok im done